A year gone and gone with the wind…
Just thinking about the worries
of mine at the beginning of the year…no…. those things do not scare me anymore;
do not make me awake at night. The worries for future are there, but they have lost
the intensity. The vulnerability of life is so pronounced that I do not worry
for position, status or power fight any more. Two incidents of 2012 had shaken
me from the core. One was Sandy Hook Elementary School incident and the other
was the rape and unimaginable torture on a 23rd year old girl. My
faith on humanity is hanging on a thread. Yes, I know about war and death of
children in war. But this is like the sudden full stop of the beautiful lives
of 20 little children, their laughs and their dreams. After my mother’s death,
I have not been shaken so much. The second incident was so brutal that I could
not even think about that anymore. Even the word “animal behavior” is nothing
to describe that crime. At one point of time, I thought,” let it be. Let the
Mayans be true. The world is no longer a place to live anymore.”
I am a mother and I play a very critical role in a person’s life. Now instead of raising a successful man, I want to raise a human being who should be compassionate and caring and who will value humanity more than
anything else. That is the only think I hope for and breath to live for.
Bye bye 2012.
